ha, I needed that... (prior) and I did (post)

That title was written before typing this post, so it is a little presumptuous saying that this will be good.  Good in what way you may ask, and to be honest I don't have the foggiest clue.  Except for the fact that this will be a good bit of therapy for a blogger's mind... namely mine.  (I had to come back and add a little humor to this post so this seemed like a good place)  Despite my best plans to make this funny, my typical random thoughts betray me to reality.

If that did not make sense, I am preparing you to buckle up, this won't be funny, it also doesn't make sense (I can say that because this short blurb was written after the fact)  Basically you could refer to this, what you are reading currently, as the prequel, or preface.

That out of the way let us begin with the basics... I am baffled by almost every aspect of life... not to say that I am going insane, rather all the little details are doing (pirouettes) circles in my head.

The main one is competition... and it all of a sudden doesn't sound like a small detail.  Rather it is riddled with it's own small details.  What makes us want to win, and what makes it okay to lose?  At what point does a casual game become an important game... and should it ever be that way... does competition help increase the amount of enjoyment?  Why is competition enjoyable?

This sounds like an odd thing to think of, but it is just one example of how all the small pieces of larger pies have infiltrated my brain this weekend, and more or less this is just a way to say something.  Which is what I needed to do... write something down.  (To be totally honest, I could have written anything down and been satisfied... well at least that is how it feels).  Basically I have to wonder, why do I have the desire to win and why do I feel like life is a competition, because my worth is not based on the abilities of others.

ps. pirouettes of thought can sure make a guy dizzy,

you might just agree if this post had the same effect on

you.  If so, you understand how my thought process

has gone so far this week.

pps.  I don't know if I can promise better but I hope something more

natural will come together next week, but if not so be it.